“Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, and you fight to let go.”
For my painting, I used a 7mm mechanical pencil to sketch, and acrylic paints to add color. I used Golden gloss spray to seal, protect, and add shine.
“Some of us think holding on makes us strong but sometimes it is letting go.”
When I was a little girl I heard the phrase “Silence is Golden”, and I remember giggling and thinking how funny it sounded, and what it could possibly mean. I internalized a lot growing up, and myself became silent and guarded around others. I learned to trust no one basically. To open up and freely give others my secret side, my side that is part of my soul, feels wrong. Going through therapy and my journey for mental health I have agreed I will release a piece of that part of me. But by no means will I release the whole. I fear if I do, I will cease to exist as me. My spiritual anatomy will be full of holes. Some hurt, some pain, some agony I refuse to relent. They are so ingrained into my soul, and I had to at times go through Hell to obtain them. They are mine. If getting a healthier mind means handing over bits of my unhealthy companions, so be it. But leave me with some of my anguish. Because that is a huge part of who I am.
Hope everyone has a blessed weekend! Ash